is it really summer?

its summer, schools out, but wheres all the fun im supposed to be having? i work 5 days a week which sucks. working in a daycare is one of the hardest things to do, and no one can fully understand until the walk in the shoes of one of the teachers and spend 8 or more hours with about 16 or 17 toddlers at one time. it is not easy, and very tiring. i have a curse on me i think, every daycare i work at i always start out in the preschool room, this is the age i love, the kids can have a conversation with you, are able to do things on their own and follow directions, i get to know these kids and love going into work everyday, then it happens! the switch me into the toddler room, dont get me wrong i love all kids, but i know i dont give my best to them, simply because i cant, its to much to handle and too many of them at that. i hate saying something to them and just getting starred at, like i have 10 heads. i hate having to feed them because they cant eat on their own. i hate changing their diapers. not to mention the two other teachers in the room arent very helpful either. one of the them treats me like im one of the babies and the other always says shes going to do something, leaves me outside with the kids, and doesnt come back for a half hour. not only that but she calls her boyfriend at least 3 times a day and that doesnt even count the times he calls in to talk to her. the other teacher told me to scrub the floor the other day,...so there i was scrubbing the floor, last i checked caring for the children was in my job description not scrubbing floors, because the cleaning crew do not do a good job.

thankfully, last week was only a 4 day week. we had off on friday due to july 4th. having an extra day off was great, and im already dreading going back tommorow. on friday, i got a surprising phone call from a friend i havent heard from in a while, he asked to do something, until he had to go pick up his other friend. i agreed, but i was a little annoyed at the same time. i was so happy that we would spend time together and that he actually called but i kinda feel like i was a time killer for him. also we went to see transformers, and he admitted that no one else would go see it with him because they already had. so then again i also feel like i was used to go see a movie. i already told him though, he owes me big time, when i really girly movie is out, hes going to have to go with me.

today he has a chance to prove he cares. he says we havent hung out in a while cuz alot of things were going on and he didnt want to talk about them at them time i asked to hang out. so now that we've talked, we will see what happens. Friday after he dropped me off he was supposed te text me if he was coming back and he never did. strike 1. but that didnt surprise me, cuz when he leaves 2 go pick up his (choice words) friend i know he wont follow through with what he says. so today he gets another chance. we talked about going to dinner after he gets out of work tonight, so we will see if he follows through with that. hopefully he will, we only get about a half hour to talk on friday cuz that movie was almost 3 hours long!! so we will see, im crossing my fingers, its all up to him now.

in a little im going to pick up gina, were going to get our nails done, and im going to relax for once, and pamper myself. even though, i know that will b hard to do cause i will be wondering all day if our dinner tonight will happen.