changes......

The past couple weeks have been the best and the worst, all at the same time.
yesterday i left my cousin in Nyc for college. I dont even consider her my cousin, but my little sister. no matter what she is always there for me. i feel as though that something is missing. i no she will do great and i wish her the best of luck in everything. baby girl-stay safe, have fun and live it up. thank you for all you do for me and always sticking by me. I love you and i cant beleive how fast your growing up!

this whole month i have been reunited with my best friend. Hes been the one person, besides gina, that i can count on for the last 7 years. we have the best time with each other, have so much fun. i can say that i am the most comfortable with him than anyone else. as a girl with very low self confidence, i feel the best and amazing when im with him. ordinarily ill feel as though everyone is staring and thinking bad things about me, but when he is by my side i could careless what anyone has to say. our truly cherish his friends more than any of my others.yes, ill be the first to admit we've had problems. but we got thorough every single one and they have only made our friendship stronger.

While our firendship is great in everyway possible, theres one problem. My family. they have seen the many ups and downs of our frienship, and cannot let them go. um hello have you ever heard of forgive and forget?!If am willing to forgive him then thye should have no say. i dont understand am 20 years old, but somwehow the treat me like im five. there is no reason why i have to be home by 10 when i go out with him, but with any one else it doesnt matter. and why is it such a big deal if he doesnt meet me at our house? if am already out there is no reason why we have to drive all the way home just so he meets me here. i hate they way they hate the one person that i can honestly say my best friend. most times when i come home from hanging out with him, i end up in tears because, of all the bad things they have to say when i get home from hanging out with him.

Today when i got home, my parents told me that if we want to hang out he has to meet me at my house no matter what, or im not seeing him. I know he would do that no problem. but theres just one thing standing in the way. tommorow he has to go to court for something involoving his license and he believes its getting taken away for a year. if that happens what does that mean for us? if he cant drive here, and i cant see him unless he meets me at my house, does that mean i have to wait 1 whole year, to hang out with my best friend again? idk what i would do. sometimes all i really need is one of his hugs to turn a horrible day into a great one. sometimes all i need is someone to talk to about how my day was. Somwtimes all i need is someone that i no loves me unconditionally. Sometimes all i need is his familar face, knowing he cares about me. If this happens i dont know what ill do. we will have to find away to see each other. hopefully, everything thing will work out. i sure hope so! i dont know what i would do with out him.

i just wish my parents and the rest of my family, saw him they way i see him, the caring loving, best friend ill always have. they dont understand, and it so hard. to hear them constently knock him down!