...with tears running down your face

i cant begin to describe how am feeling today, upset, depressed, frustrated, cant stop crying. i wake up today only to find that my best friend is moving to new orleans, next month. what a great way to find over the internet. after all this time,i really didnt think it would hurt this much, hes been more of a jerk lately than a true best friend, but i think that might be part of why it hurts so much that hes leaving. when i think back, hes really the only one of my true best friends. no matter what i had to say he would sit and listen, my other friends only listen to what they want to hear. and me being upset that he is leaving, i will on only have to hold it in because, they could care less, and me even saying hes name, will make them mad. so really once he moved, the only good friend, i will have is in new orleans:(, yes only a phone call away, but what about those times when all i really need is a hug :(! u cant hug someone on the phone. im hoping that he makes some time for me sometime soon, its so hard, to to know that hes leaving and i havent seen him. i really have nothing elese to say am to upset to talk about it...