Exausted

so i can say im exausted after this weekend, physically, mentally and emotionaly. (sorry for my lack of good spelling). Friday started out ok, going to the dentist but then spending time with one of my favorite cousin who can make me laugh even if shes not trying to. Things didnt start to go down hill until saturday night. I had a great time getting ready to go out, couldnt wait to see one of my best friends who i havent seen in a very long time. and then "that"( see previous entry) had to happen. ive basically had my fill of him treating my like he does. That whole thing pretty much ruined my night altough i kept a fake smile on my face to keep the tears from falling. and pretend it really didnt bother me. im used to that. Today i went to breakfast with one of my best friends since kindergarten. i cant believe that we've known each other for 15 years now, its so crazy. Her mom almost looked like she wanted to cry this aftenoon as we talked about how we will be graduating college in about 2 years. As much as we dont see each other, cause she is away at school, i no she is someone i can and always will be able to count on. After breakfast we went to look for a new snowboard for her. i have no idea about any of that stuff. it was fun though. we also passed someone on the way to one of the stores. and for the record he looked even more misreable than he did last night. but it still hurts to see him. so like i said im exausted i need to sleep like really sleep but with so much running through my mind i cant. I need to cut him out of my life complety but being close to someone for 6 years and being inseperbale doesnt make that come easy.

On another note as we speak...its snowing outside, last i heard 8-12 inches is expected! yet another thing to make me mad. I cant win. St pattys day is coming up and maybe ill find a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow and my luck and happiness will finally change.