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You say you dont sleep...im sure..u sleep more than anyone else in this house. you say theres a lot of stuff going on that i have no idea about it. think twice mama dukes, i no more than you think, about whats going on, dont forget i have cousins who work and see his paperwork! im not an idiot. You tell me get a job and then i can pay to go on a vacation. yea right, ud never let me go away with friends and no adults. never! u had a heart attack when i went to FL for 3 days with my much older cousin then me! (ps. sue, i dont mean ur old). You'll see, ill plan a vacation and buy everything without you knowing. i dont need ur permission anymore im 20 yrs old not 5 although thats the way im treated. I could have been going to the bahamas on spring break, but no you wouldnt let me do that either. Soon ill be 21, wont that be fun for you! You want to move to an old folks community go, i never told you to buy this big house anyway, and i sure didnt tell you to move to a big house in the middle of nowhere, where it takes forever to get anywhere. Im in a college that you picked for me, because you wouldnt let me go away to school. Im in a major that you picked for me , forced it upon me. you wouldnt except it if i did what i really wanted to be majoring in. My life has been hand picked by you. My friends, i blame half of me and his friendship problems on you two for pushing him away. You dont like the ones i like and the ones i spend the most time with. I will never bring a boy in this house that you approve off. Unless his exactly like landon from a walk to remember. Newsflash: its 2009, theres probably 2 of them that exist, and they sure as hell dont live in NJ. What would you do if i moved to FL and started over all by myself. Its the only place ive truely felt happy in a very long time. Maybe thats what i need. I nice see ya later! i think ud rather see me miserable than happy. Ive never been in trouble, never walked in the house drunk, never! im the only 2o yr old who still has to be home by midnight! Go to sleep, i can handle opening the door and turining off the alarm. im the only one who has to call mommy and daddy before i go anywhere. Ive completly had it. You say im never home..Wake up theres a reason for that! Maybe stop treating me like im 5 and treat me like the 20 yr old that i am and maybe ill stay around some more.

as you can see things arent to happy over here. ive complety had it. These are the times that i wish me and you could sit down and talk so i could tell you all the things that i need to say. and you can give me a hug and make things feel better, at least for that moment. you've told me countless times, im always here for you no matter what. If i called you now 2 tell you i really need to talk to someone, id get the voicemail, with no call back. What happend to ALWAYS? i miss you more than you ever no, i dont think u realize your the only one of my friends that actually listens when im upset! i wish you were here right now!

anyway. tommorows thurdays i have to meet with my advisor so she can screw up my schedule some more for next semester. Cant wait. Have a mid term in inclusion to, should be to hard comsidering we get to have 2 pages of notes. in small print i can get everything on there. thats all for now

An oldie but goodie. at least britney knows what im feeling.