Tears

so today i cried as i got dressed to go to class as well as half of my 40 minute drive there. once i got there, i put on my everyday fake smile, and walked to class. I put in my head that i was writing you a message when i got home asking for you to be there for me now. I had a complete breakdown and just needed to talk to you because your the only one that makes things seem ok. but i didnt for 2 reasons 1. i dont want to be more hurt if you dont write me back. and 2. i feel bad putting my tears and problems on you, when have your own. I have a complete breakdown at least once a month now. there no fun.

My meeting with my advisor went better than i thought, i actually passed a required test you have to take to go on to higher level class that i thought i failed. I now am well on my way to graduate in may 2011, once i get my first real job, im out of here! living on my own in my own apartment, without having my every moved watched. Thank god its thursday no more classes this week. i dont think i could have taken anymore anyway.

Getting ready 2 go to dinner w liz, she wants go where i normally would want to but not tonioght especially w what happened there on sat and how this whole week went.